Popcorn Hormones

IMG_1403I realize that it has been over a month since my last post, so figured I had better update everyone on my progress :-).

Ten and a half weeks post chemo and I now have a layer of hair :-). I have grown weary of wearing my wig, so now just throw a hat on before I go out in order to stay warm in this wonderfully cold country called Canada. I have real eyebrows again and my lashes have almost fully returned – yay! It is amazing how ‘naked’ a person can feel without brows and lashes. As trivial as it sounds after everything I’ve gone through, I really did not like that part.

I’m back to the gym and getting stronger every day, averaging 5-6 km on the treadmill each time I go. I do look forward to getting back to my beach walks in the mornings, rather than bundling up to go to the gym!

corn-popperIt’s like the fog has lifted in the last month or so and my brain has gradually come alive again. I’m beginning to retrieve things from my memory that would have been impossible a couple of months ago – thus progress is being made in wading out of the chemo brain puddle. With the fog lifting however, has come the emotional roller-coaster that goes along with medically induced menopause. My hormones feel like they are in a ‘corn popper’ toy, rising and falling without warning. I just keep reminding myself of the blissfulness of living in the moment, letting things roll off my back so to speak and staying positive.

As far as what lies ahead, my return flight to Panama is booked for December 29th. I look forward to physically getting back to work at My Panama Real Estate, seeing all of my Panama friends and making new ones! I will need to learn how to pace myself in order to protect my health and stay on the path of being cancer-free.

Both of my daughters will be home for Christmas, which makes me very happy indeed! I am looking forward to spending the holidays with family and friends and giving thanks for all of the love and support I have received this year – particularly during my chemo days. It is a year that I will be happy to bring to an end, yet I feel that the personal growth I have achieved over the past few months has brought many things into perspective.

April will bring me back to Canada for a check-in with my oncologist, as well as consultations with a couple of surgeons for breast reconstruction. A surgery date will depend on which surgeon I choose and their OR schedule, so that part is somewhat up in the air. I understand that everything is in ‘divine order’ and I will go with the flow.

As we enter the Christmas season, my wish for you all is that you have peace and happiness within. You have all been such a blessing to me, lifting my spirits during those challenging days of chemo and I will be forever grateful!

About denisemacdonald

I am a Canadian entrepreneur who has been spending the majority of my time between Canada and Panama, Central America. Living oceanfront, I am an 'investment consultant', predominantly in the area of real estate in the beaches areas. Photography is my hobby. In April, 2014 I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Triple Negative Breast Cancer. I will be sharing my journey here on these 'pages'. If you would like to learn more about "Triple Negative" breast cancer, please click onto http://www.tnbcfoundation.org/.
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11 Responses to Popcorn Hormones

  1. Linda says:

    Thanks for the post Denise. I so happy that you have lashes and brows and that your hair is growing back! All good things. Take good care and wishing you many years of happiness and good health,

  2. Suzi says:

    Denise, you are a brave and strong woman sharing so much of yourself with friends as well as strangers. You give new meaning to the words positive attitude. It sounds like you are doing wonderful. I look forward to meeting you when you return to Panama. Peace be with you through Christmas and being with you family is such a blessing. Enjoy that. Sending hugs and, trust me, if I could send some of this hot and sunshine I would send that too!!

  3. Annette Zammit says:

    Such a beautiful and inspirational post especially poignant at this time of the year Advent, so happy for you and the fact that you are now recovering from the side effects of that nasty but essential treatment chemo, I will show Charles your photo as you both have the same hair cut, I can sympathise with the no hair bit as I have had to cut his really short because he was twisting it around in his fingers and creating a bald patch, that was not nice! We will continue to pray for you and we wish you a very peaceful and joyful Christmas, you are a real trooper Denise and a great inspiration to others in the same situation as yourself do not give up on your blog! I love reading it! God Bless xxxx

    • Thank you so much for our kind words Annette! I think if you and Charles often. Funny, my daughter was a hair twirler and I remember cutting huge knots out of her hair as a result, lol. It feels awesome to be back in Panama now with the sunshine and happiness :-).

  4. Diane Malloy says:

    I am now beginning the journey you have finished, only with lung cancer. Which I have been told they don’t think it is invasive. I have my last biopsy today and am praying very hard. My question to you is who supplied medical insurance for you to go to Panama ? We have always spent our winters i Mexico and the Dr. Said if surgery goes well we could possibly be looking to go there at the end of February. it can y
    Ou be insured is my question.
    You have been a stronge lady through your journey and I so admire how you have made out. Congratulations Denise. It can be done.

  5. Angela Hanwell says:

    you are an incredible lady and such an inspiration to us all. Wishing you and your wonderful family an incredible Christmas season. Travel safe, Be well and keep on moving forward girlfriend…love ya to pieces. xo
    Ange xo

  6. Darlene Sage says:

    So glad you have fought the battle so well! Bob and I wish you and your family a very Merry Christmas and all the best for 2015!!

  7. Alex. says:

    So glad you are doing well. Hope all goes well for you in the future. I’m also from Canada and also sick, but chose a bit different journey. Actually in Panama now for the month of December. Looking for some accommodation at the beach for a few days to get away from Panama City ( Santa Clara looks great). If you have any suggestions please let me know.
    Once again all the best to you.

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