Morning Look?


Photo Credit: Kevin Painter

Photo Credit: Kevin Painter

It is currently the fourth day since my first chemo treatment. When I saw this photo that my friend Kevin sent, I laughed – and laughing is always a good thing! It reminded me of how I feel when I look in the mirror in the mornings these days. So far though, I have still have hair!

Typically, I awaken feeling nauseous – it’s like really bad morning sickness, only I’m definitely not pregnant, lol. There is also this level of deep fatigue that doesn’t seem to go away throughout the day. They gave me drugs such as Emend, Dexamethasone, Zofran within the three days immediately surrounding the actual chemo treatment and then Metoclopramide to use as needed with nausea. I’ve already used them and yes, they do help for a little while. So far I’m mostly sticking to soups and lighter foods, as the heavier ones haven’t fared so well :-/. In addition to all those meds, I also get to have a shot (yes needle) of Neupgen every day for seven days – did I mention needles are not my favourite thing? I’m learning that it is something I have no choice but to get used to so I’m sucking it up. Thank goodness Kirk is a great nurse, as he lovingly administers them each day as I turn my head so that I don’t have to look! By afternoon, I start to feel human for a couple of hours and by about 6pm I’m typically exhausted and barely able to hold my head up it feels so heavy! However, I’m quickly learning my thresholds regarding visiting (I had to see my Daddy on Father’s Day!) and even chatting on the phone and am abiding by them. Many people warned me “listen to your body” and they will be happy to know that I am doing just that!

Today was probably the worst morning as far as nausea was concerned. However, I went for my IVC (IV Vitamin C) today and felt SO much better afterwards. Not quite ready to go out dancing yet, but it is certainly encouraging. If I feel this much better after each one I will be counting the days between them!

I know these days are cyclical within the treatment and am looking forward for the ‘good’ days to come back quickly, as my chin is up and I know they will. I’m incredibly grateful for the messages, cards, gifts and amazing food that keeps arriving at our home :-). Everyone has been extremely thoughtful and it does not go unnoticed! With that, I’m keeping my post short today. Just wanted to share this brief update along with the amusing and artistic photo :-).

About denisemacdonald

I am a Canadian entrepreneur who has been spending the majority of my time between Canada and Panama, Central America. Living oceanfront, I am an 'investment consultant', predominantly in the area of real estate in the beaches areas. Photography is my hobby. In April, 2014 I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Triple Negative Breast Cancer. I will be sharing my journey here on these 'pages'. If you would like to learn more about "Triple Negative" breast cancer, please click onto
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7 Responses to Morning Look?

  1. Cheryl Newell says:

    You are doing amazing, keep it up.

  2. Phyllis Eig says:

    John July told me today you were “blogging” and got me started. Denise, I am sending you love and all good wishes for a truly great recovery. Looking forward to following the blog and your thoughts. You are one terrific gal and you will make it through!. Celebrations ahead!!!!

  3. Barb Death says:

    You are never far from my daily thoughts Denise! Sending you positive vibes and prayers for a full recovery! Big hugs to you!

  4. Linda says:

    I continue to follow your blog and can relate to so many of your experiences. Where are you getting the vitamin C IV? Call me if you need to talk
    BIG hugs

  5. itsbecauseisaidso says:

    Hi Denise, Did your doctor and you discuss Neulasta instead of Neupogen? It’s just one needle instead if seven, and off-the-shelf Claritin seems to counteract most of the bone pain associated with it. I had the every-two-week dose dense chemo too, and hate needles, so Neulasta was great for me. It could be a doctor preference, but you could always ask…

    • We did. But my insurance company covered Neupogen and not Neulasta unfortunately. I’m grateful for the coverage at least, but do wish it could be just the one needle!

      • itsbecauseisaidso says:

        Insurance companies! They are crazy! I ended up having 90% of it accepted, and went to The Victory Group (the maker’s arm’s-legth group) to pay for the remaining $300. I’m Canadian too, all treatment at St. Michael’s except for radiation, which is at Princess Margaret, Toronto.

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