Made It!

2014-05-15 20.12.56Well, I woke up in a bit of a panic the day before surgery and immediately asked “Is this REALLY happening to ME? Or is it a bad dream?” The reply from my amiga, was “You are REALLY about to kick cancer’s ass! No two ways about it.” To which I said “I sure hope so, because I asked them to cut off my boobs yesterday!!”

In one aspect, I had felt so relieved to have made my ‘decision’, yet even though I had, I was still painfully processing the multitude of ramifications that accompanied that decision. Lorazepam got me through the day :-)….so much for going as natural as I could, haha. Some times you just have to cave.

Game day came yesterday and I was treated like a princess at the local hospital – Peterborough Regional Health Centre. I immediately recognized the woman who checked me in and gave me a warm welcome. Then I was touched to discover that my Dad had beaten me there and was waiting for me, so that he could sit with my husband and I until I was called in. My sister arrived next to ensure that I had everything I needed, followed by my friend Cheryl, who was the ‘messenger’. She constantly checked in during my surgery and initial stage recovery to update my friends and family as they anxiously awaited any news of progress.

As you can see in my photo, I awakened with a big smile on my face – as C had now been kicked to the curb! The first step has been completed and the rest will follow to hopefully keep it there. It did take me a couple of hours to manage to sit up and get the heck out of there though, as the first time I tried, I felt like a mack truck had hit me square on. Once I did however, it was nice to sleep in my own bed last night, without any bells, phones or nurses to wake me up ;-).

Today has been good, with lots of TLC from my husband. Home Care came by this morning to check my bandages and I’m being extremely well-fed. Homemade organic soup (thank you Janis!) along with Mom’s lasagna, tuna casserole and banana bread … yum! I’m walking a little on my own already, and by tomorrow I hope to be running up and down the stairs…..well okay, maybe walking on my own up the stairs. I’ll save the running for the next day.

About denisemacdonald

I am a Canadian entrepreneur who has been spending the majority of my time between Canada and Panama, Central America. Living oceanfront, I am an 'investment consultant', predominantly in the area of real estate in the beaches areas. Photography is my hobby. In April, 2014 I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Triple Negative Breast Cancer. I will be sharing my journey here on these 'pages'. If you would like to learn more about "Triple Negative" breast cancer, please click onto
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9 Responses to Made It!

  1. Brenda blake says:

    Love you. You are such an amazing lady!

  2. Anne Driscoll says:

    Thank you ! You remain to have that beautiful heart felt smile.

  3. Diane Malloy says:

    I think you are the bravest woman I know.

    • Wow Diane, that comment surprised me – but I thank you from the bottom of my heart. It’s funny, because I don’t feel ‘brave’, I feel like I’m just bumbling along and trying to deal with it in the best way I can. I had a few people who truly inspired me and made me look deep inside to evaluate which side to be on with this. If I chose the ‘negative’ side, it would lead me to a bad place, with probably not so good of an ending. So I chose the ‘positive’ side and have amazed even myself at how that positivity turns into even MORE positivity. So I thank you for making me take the time to stop, evaluate your statement, self-reflect again and say “YES, perhaps I AM braver than I even believed :-)!” Sending you hugs and love xo.

  4. mslook says:

    I’m amazed that you went home from the hospital the day of the surgery!! Wow!! Fantastic!! Love you!!

  5. Melanie says:

    AWESOME so happy to see you are on the road to recovery! YOU are amazing. Love ya! xoxoxo 🙂

  6. Lia Evangelista says:

    My Sweet Denise…I had no idea. I promise to keep you in prayer. What an amazing attitude you have and how wonderfully surrounded you are.. Even on that hospital bed you are absolutely beautiful. I honour you! God bless you, keep you and heal you… love always, Lia

  7. itsbecauseisaidso says:

    Fantastic attitude. Loving husband, Mom and friends. Lorazepam. Excellent ingredients for an excellent recovery!

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